Biggest regret of my life

I always lived by this motto " Not to live life with regrets" and i tried as hard as possible not to... but the one thing i thought i would not regret is my biggest regret ever.. and that is to marry the wrong person. Seriously, marrying the wrong person is HELL! and having a kid with the wrong person is doubly HELL! Dun get me wrong..i Love my kid, he is everything to me.. but for him to have such a father.. is just shameful on me! i blame myself for giving my adorable son such a selfish, egoistic father. I hope he will one day forgive me.

i want to document this because one day my son will ask me why his biological parents are not together.. and hopefully one day when he is older he will understand..
In hope , he will understand why i m strict with him, he will understand why it breaks my heart to go to work and leave him with his wonderful nanny and wonderful grandparents, he will understand that my heart hurts every time he says he wants his father and misses him. He will understand every time how frustrated and angry i get whenever his biological father puts his own needs before his own son and still think it is right. he will understand why i swallow my pride just so my son can still contact that selfish man. I just want my son to be happy and will do so no matter how difficult it is.


a mother's love knows no boundaries and that is for my son.